The connection between a mother and a child.

Philippians 4:6-7 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Laying in my momma's hospital room, secretly staring at her while she peacefully sleeps, I am reminded of just how much I truly love and adore this woman. I am reminded of all of the sacrafises my parents made to ensure Cortney & I the best life possible. I am reminded that this woman, while 3 months pregnant with me had a brain aneurysm; which miraculously we both survived. She could hardly talk, she had to re-learn to read, write, and speak, all while having a 2 year old that was too scared to come close to her "mom". After I was born, I had to have surgery, I have one kidney that had to be monitored, and lets be honest I was a difficult baby. 

They say the connection between child and parent is like none else. They say it's a unbreakable love, a love that you can never replace, and all I can do is agree. She has shaped me, and taught me to be the woman I am today. I am more then blessed to have so much of her in me, and I just hope one day I can be half the momma she has been for me. 

The woman that I have been staring at for the past hour is my hero. She is my momma. She is point blank the strongest lady I have ever met, and she has supported my sister and I in every step of our lives. When I'm sick- I want her. When I need a shoulder to cry on- hers is the first I go to. When I am excited- I want her to know the news first. When I'm having a hard time & need advice- She is my first phone call. When I want to watch a movie and eat pop corn- I make her have a girls night. When I want to go to the zoo- She is the first person I want to bring. When I go to the grocery store- I have to go down every isle because that's how my mom does it. When I want to love on her- she allows me. When I need a blunt yet kind kick in the butt- I go to her ;).  Basically what I'm telling you is my momma is more then my mom, she is my best friend. 

My mother is Beautiful, Caring, Loving, Blunt, Special, Creative, Loves Jesus, funny, supportive, kind, honest, encouraging, Strong, Giving, Nurturing, Thoughtful, Full of life, Forgiving, Trust Worthy, Proper, HARD WORKING, Loyal, Charming.... Basically I could keep going but I think you get the picture. 

While at Harrison my mom has made friends with some of the nurses. They stop by and say HI when they don't have her room for their shifts. It's been such a blessing to watch this happen & to get to know these ladies. It's also been so nice to see her talking to them, and opening up. It makes it so much better knowing the nurses taking care of your momma care about her :) Today I baked for about 4 hours. I came with goodies; cookies, muffins, granola bars, cookie bars, and cake- just to say THANK YOU. It felt really nice to be able to do something for them in return for everything they have done for us!

Momma update: Today has been a eventful day- She is still in Harrison. Mom is doing ok. She is still accepting pain med's which has helped her a lot, and finally allowed her to sleep- thank God. Her blood transfusion went great, and they have got her nausea under control. I don't think she had puked in a few days :) We did figure out today that her cancer markers in her blood are climbing- meaning the new Chemo they gave her did not work. They have switched up Chemo's again to try and get one that will work. We should know in the next few weeks if it is working or not. She is weak, but she is so strong. Her hair is growing in and it looks wonderful. Her smile melts my heart every time I see it, and I lay with her as much as I can until she kicks me off the bed ;-D 

I ask for prayer- In healing, that the Chemo will take, that the quality of her life will be Great, That she is Happy, That she feels Loved. I pray that She feels surrounded by grace, comforted by the arms of Jesus, lying in the peace that only jesus can bring. I pray for her mind, I pray she let's out her feelings. I Pray for restoration between family members, for forgiveness and grace. But most of all I pray that through this God is uplifted, and that we all have peace in his perfect plan. 

Thank you everyone for all your Prays, support, and love. It truly means the world to my family and I. It's so awesome to be able to tell my momma that Children in Africa are praying for her, people in England, Canada, Poland, Rome, Mexico & the US are praying for her. Always remember that God is so good!! 

She's awake- meaning I'm going to go lay with her, love on her, and tell her how special she is to me :D

Goodnight All, God Bless :)

Psalm 46:1-3  God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging.