Put one foot in front of the other

Think back to when you watched Frosty The Snowman & Santa Clause Is Coming To Town when you were little; Mr.Warlock sang the song "Put one foot in front of the other and soon you will be walking out the door". 

Tomorrow we will be walking out the door- Momma Foos is coming home <3

This is very exciting news but also very scary times. This is the first time she has not wanted to come home, she is real nervous, and scared about all the changes ahead of her. She will be connected to the IV TPN (Total Nutrition) again, but she will also have a pain pump added. She is beyond scared to be in pain at home, feel nauseated, and not be able to contact the nurse for immediate relief. Mom still has a hard time understanding that the pain pump is to manage the pain- meaning you have to press the button before your pain hits a 5, she waits until level 5 and the amount the pump gives is not enough to help with level 5 pain. This will be the biggest struggle at home, figuring out how often to press the button to make her conformable, and make her quality of life better. On top of figuring out the right time to press the button, the pain medication she is on makes her feel nauseous sometimes. She is still not eating because it hurts to eat, meaning taking medication by mouth is pointless. The extra pain/ nausea medication will have to be taken orally, she is nervous that we will end up back here because she will be throwing up the medication. It's all going to be new and it will take a few days to get a routine going so that she feels comfortable but PLEASE be praying for a safe/stressless transition. Please pray she has enough confidence in me, and that she will express how she is feeling. Pray we can get the pain/nausea figured out right away, that she gets rest at home, and that she feels so loved from all the support. Pray that God take's the anxiety, and fright away and replaces it with a overwhelming sense of peace and comfort. Also please say a prayer for me, pray that I know everything I can medication wise, that I understand everything they send me home with, and that I can gage and understand my momma even just a little bit better to make this all a smoother transition. 

It's been a little odd the past few days, mom has been overwhelmed- making her emotional but she has also been joking around with some of the nurses and more aware of what is going on. She is paying more attention, walking more, Talking more, Sleeping more, and she seems to be liking life a little bit more. SUCH A BLESSING. Today alone we have walked 3 times, and she talked to Kevin & Jessi :). Little bits of progress might seem so little but to me every little bit is a party and is worth celebrating! I'm nervous/ scared to get her home but I am also very Excited! We are ready to love on her, play board games, watch movies, and just celebrate her at home!

You know when you enter into a place and feel a little weird because you don't know anyone? Do you also know the feeling you get when after a while you make new friends, connect with people, learn to love them and enjoy them being part of your everyday? It's going to be weird leaving tomorrow. I am going to miss these wonderful woman. They have truly been a blessing to my family, they make mom laugh, they make her smile, they bring out the sassy-ness in her, and they comfort her when all else seems to be broken. We have exchanged numbers and email with some of the girls to just keep everyone updated, and so that mom can connect with them. Tomorrow will be bitter sweet!

My BEST FRIEND is visiting for a few weeks & she came to the hospital tonight to spend time with me :) I just had to mention this because I MISS HER like crazy always, but also because I am blessed with AMAZING friends. I have such a tremendous support system, and boy does this girl keep me going. It's amazing that even though you might not talk to someone everyday, or live in the same state that it doesn't change a thing. My mom kept asking me about her, and when she left just now my mom through a haze, made it a point to say that it was so good to see her. I love that my momma Loves her.  

Be strong and courageous. Do not be Afraid for the LORD is with you; he will NEVER leave you or forsaken you. Deuteronomy 31:6

But the Lord has been my defense. And my God; the rock of my REFUGE. Psalms 94:22

Goodnight & God bless